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THE DEFORM AGE

by Consume-Abuse-Decay

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SUBMERGED 05:27
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I have stepped into a void Desolate empty vacant noise I am lost I’m far gone Only peace when I light up Hate to face the Truth today Coming down from Yesterday Vivid wants but can’t care All my dreams Turn to despair Vapid drone I’ve lost control Thoughts progress i'm on my own I don’t know what’s worse today The fact I’m alive Or just alive decay Fading out I’m fading fast I never fixed me I have no past Same man I was Yesterday I never changed I stayed the same Shooting up can’t aim for shit The shit I smoke I wish I could quit I’m wasting away I know the pain Yet I do it Everyday Call me numb yeah Call me fucked up I just can’t Give it up Smoke til I die With tears in my eyes Wondering why Am I even alive Lonely am I Embraced by the pipe Im warm inside While I’m getting high Light breathe smoke Hit out inside Quit Light breathe smoke Hit out I exist I Exit Exist exist exist Ist ist ist Existence is weak Too dirty for me I pray for relief I’m struck with disease I can’t feel alive when I’m just high All the time I feel I need to get high I pay the dope man I’ll pay his fee For he is who Controls me I have to ride this existence called life I sacrifice my money and my pride Please though when you Look at me Don’t be ashamed of the face you see I gave it my best I gave it my all It’s just a fact I happen to fall Sell my dick for a bag My time for a line My mouth for a friend My ass for some cash Ill do anything, anything Im suffering Misery loves company Mine just costs a fee Trade my life for happiness And security I wonder what that would bring me Security Smoke til I die With tears in my eyes Wondering why Am I even alive Lonely am I Embraced by the pipe Im warm inside While I’m getting high Light breathe smoke Hit out inside Quit Light breathe smoke Hit out I exist I Exit Exist exist Ist ist ist
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NOT THE SAME ANYMORE 05:06
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Hands fall down across my face and I have nothing to show but shame 31 still breathing out Yet still Have not figured it out Age has taught nothing but pain I trust no one I stand alone Weaker More fragile Than I was And will ever become Eyes fall short My tongue runs sharp My Heart beats patterns Of works of art Anxiety just to casually Fake a smile Somewhere along the way People seem to have Broke me down Torn me down A distant Far stretched Version I was yesterday I'm not the same Anymore I haven’t eaten in days Slept in weeks At night i'm forced to touch myself So he can get sleep Words cut through my eyes I can’t stable my throat Trapped in his head With prayers for the weak Hands fall down across my face And I can’t see through this prescription haze Or maybe it was something different instead He’s over obsessed his hands on me now All the dreams I had are shattered on the ground And I am violated At his pleasure Until I Bleed I haven’t eaten in days Slept in weeks At night the rape replays in my head Repeat the scene Im not the same I can’t live this way Pound some whiskey with some amphetamines “He couldn’t say no” Overdose Lips blue and white He’s looking comatose Existence is weak He whispered to me Let go of your dreams Claim defeat Eyes fall short my Tongue runs sharp My heart beats patterns Of works of art Anxiety just to Casually Fake a smile Somewhere along the way People seem to have broke me down Torn me down A distant Far stretched Version I was yesterday I'm not the same Anymore
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-PARHELION SLIT- 04:46
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EXHUAST-CONSUME-RUN-THROUGH 04:41
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ou know that I can’t get enough Taste so good I can’t get enough Live for it I Need the rush Its the thrill of it I need the touch Keep me from it like it’s blasphemy Either way in the end We all end up in need Without it Life is Obsolete Addicted to it I’m always In need And I’m not Just your toy Or your play-thing I get off Can’t get enough Of your suffering And i’m not Just your toy Or your play-thing I get off Can’t get enough Of your suffering You know that I can’t get enough I live for it I need the rush Look so good I can’t help[ too destroy With a little bit of violence Its brings me joy Lips so pure I can’t get enough You know I can’t Get enough And I’m not Just your toy Or your play-thing I get off Can’t get enough Of your suffering And i’m not Just your toy Or your play-thing I get off Can’t get enough Of your suffering
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I AM NOTHING AT ALL 06:53
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REPLICATE IN ISOLATION HES GOT A NEW PRISCRIPTION 04:56
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MY LIES KEEP ME ALIVE 05:25
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I can’t speak til I die Live to fuck up live to lie Ego takes ahold of me Obliterate relentlessly Streaking none Can’t grasp my stick Your money has nothing to do with it And I cry when I lie Cuz it hurts me inside To see you Alive With such demise I despise that I Have to hide My lies Keep me alive My lies Keep me alive And I cry when I lie Cuz it hurts me inside To see you Alive With such demise I despise that I Have to hide My lies Keep me alive My lies Keep me alive Lalalalalalala lie lie lie lie I can’t simplify Thoughts aren’t pure tonight I’ve had enough and I want out Suspicion is a bitch when your guilty as sin Nothing matters that will make me forgiven Obsessed with the flesh It’s just repetition Scream your faith Beg be safe God won’t even take your place Lets enjoy the ride Don’t let it die You’re mine tonight Let me enjoy the ride And I cry when I lie Cuz it hurts me inside To see you Alive With such demise I despise that I Have to hide My lies Keep me alive My lies Keep me alive And I cry when I lie Cuz it hurts me inside To see you Alive With such demise I despise that I Have to hide My lies Keep me alive My lies Keep me alive Scars create and shape our cross Life to come A bit undone Spit into the hand of shame Jerk them off They love the game Lalalalalalala lie lie lie lie And I cry when I lie Cuz it hurts me inside To see you Alive With such demise I despise that I Have to hide My lies Keep me alive My lies Keep me alive And I cry when I lie Cuz it hurts me inside To see you Alive With such demise I despise that I Have to hide My lies Keep me alive My lies Keep me alive
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I LIKE IT DIRTY 05:36
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THE DEFORM AGE 05:06
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The Deform Age was inspired by that, what I thought of when I think of how society has become.

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released February 24, 2023

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